"I lost you a year ago.
"I'm glad I know
"At least you knew
"I loved you too."

It's hard to think about the fact that I lost someone I often called my sister, even though we mainly knew each other online, and only talked to each other on the phone on a few spare occasions.  I'm not sure what I wanna say here in a public forum.  She meant a lot to me.  She was one of the women I could really look up to, and look to for advice.  A rare combination to find in a friend in anyone's life.

I guess the best thing I can do to honor her memory is to make the most of my skills.  My writings.

I just have to remember what I'm doing it for, is all.

I miss you, Sue.

Sis.

*Hugs* Forever - Joshua

This's a tribute page, for a friend of mine who lost her life tragically early.  She meant a great deal to me.  My sister, I called her, and I cared for her a great deal.

It's a way of remembering someone I shared part of my life with over the computer and sometimes the phone.  A sister who always had a joke to tell, or words of encouragement.  It's hard to imagine, as hard as her life was, her being the one to cheer me up so often.

She helped me believe in myself.  She often made it easier for me to believe in my love for another online friend of mine.  That's another story that I won't get into now.

Sue.  That was her name.  I'll remember her by a few names, and for a character she created, that she let me use later on, named Moose.  And yes, at some point, I want to do a page for the character as well, as I have done for my other characters.  Sue never got to have a kid like she often told me she wanted.  At least Moose and Wilde did.  (Wilde's my character.  They were boyfriend/girlfriend almost as soon as me and Sue started writing together.)

We both had wild imaginations, and when we got together, it was like there were really no limits on what we'd do.  I guess some of it was a little weird, perverted, but still innocent in it's own way.

Moose herself later went on to the much more innocent role of mother figure to Lightning, Jeremy Rodden's ewrestler who was known for having the mind of a six year old child.

About the time I got my job at Super KMart, which I no longer have, Sue vanished from the web, reappearing a year later to update me.  She'd gotten married.  I was relieved that she had finally gotten someone to love in her life, and to get the chance to tell her about me finally getting a job.

We got more time to talk before she passed away, another thing I am thankful for.  It's hard not to be sad about her being gone, but I know she'd want me to be happy.

She was so often, no matter what.  Nothing seemed to get her down for long.  And for that, I told her to be proud, often.

I'm proud for her.  I'm proud - and luck and thankful - just to had her in my life.  Just to have known her.

 11:10 PM 12/30/2003
    Hard to believe how long it's been. How many memories might I have already lost while fearing to put them down? Fearing to face something that reminds me of my own mortality?
    Every so often, I try to put a memory here. She deserved that. My dearest late, beloved sister. I still use her character, Moose. I think she'd like that.  Mario and I share her, in a sense, keeping her alive and hopefully happy.
    I remember everything but nothing, it seems. How we used to go to the chat rooms. The 'virtual beaches,' so to speak.   The good times, and the bad.   The downright anooying times as well.
    I remember growing as an ewrestling handler, and as a writer. Maybe even as a person.  I'm sad she's not around. Sometimes it literally tears me up. I take comfort in the fact I knew her, and that I managed to get my first job, and she managed to get married, by the time she Left This World.
    I can honestly say I would not be the same person had I not known her. I don't know what I'd be, but I believe I'd have been poorer for it.